tarasockss

i feel so horrible.
am i justified in feeling this upset over someone i barely hung out with?
i don't know.
its just such a morbid and unexpected occurrence
i'm so shocked and heartbroken for everyone around him.
am i thankful i didn't get to know him better or regretful?
i can't say for sure.
all i know is that i cant push this out of my mind.
a part of me is on the brink of tears and another feeling guilty for trying to feel pain maybe i shouldn't?
i cant quite explain it.
i keep wishing and wishing it wasn't true.
i feel so horrible for all his family, friends, and girlfriend.
no parent should have to bury their child and no 17 or 18 year old kids should thinking about attending a companion's funeral.
this is just so so so horrible and nothing is putting my troubled mind to ease.
i wish everyone the utmost support and strength in this difficult journey of grieving and attempting to recover.

rest in peace jason baroni.

i'm pathetic, basically.

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND AND HE FUCKING HATES ME.

I feel so ugly.
So fat.
So worthless
and









So jealous.

steve is my boyfriend again.



omg baby steve.

Your gentleman caller
Well, he's been calling on another
He loves his forbidden fruit
And as it dribbles down his chin
He cries:
"Baby I've been drinking with some friends now how about a little kiss"
Bad boy
Rub his nose in it, what a mess
And he's playing dumb
I'm not looking for a lover
All those lovers are liars!
I would never lie to you
You say you wanna get even
Yeah you wanna get your bad man good
Well, are you in the mood?
You bad girl
Does it feel good
Being bad?

as he's dying in his dreams
i hope you're choking in your sleep
try and breathe
justice push this pillow down
just try and breathe
try and breathe

my sweet
i wish you the best and you'll sleep
dragging it back into my dreams
lay your head down, try and rest

you left him sweating summer nights facedown
a foreplay with the streets
the salt to garnish his wounds
and you'll just danced your way home
you made it so...

as he's dying in his dreams
i hope you're choking in your sleep
try and breathe
justice push this pillow down
just try and breathe
try and breathe

my sweet
i wish you the best and
you'll sleep
dragging it back into my dreams
Lay your head down, try and rest

I bet you love this don't you
I bet you love this don't you
I bet you love this...
now peel his skin dear, peel back his skin...
and he'll just smile....
but he's only smiling to deny the pain
and he's only smiling
and i bet you love this don't you
i bet you love this dont you
i bet you love this don't you.
I bet you..

my sweet
i wish you the best and
you'll sleep
dragging it back into my dreams
Lay your head down, try and rest

i love you, pup.

I only beat you when I'm drunk,
You're only pretty when you're crying.

new years resolutions:

-paint a self portrait.
-bulid a house!

I WISH I HAD NEVER BEEN BORN :D

"I won't fly down, I can't fly down
And light on your right knee
A girl who would murder her own true love
Would kill a little bird like me."

i lost myself.

The more trouble that we get in,
The more fun if we don't get caught up in it.

haha i wannah go to japan D: